you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be

So I haven't blogged in forever. I don't even have an excuse, I've not been necessarily busy at all. Well I have. But put it this way, I've had plenty of time to update you lovely people on my life and what's going on. It's only just really occurred to me that I haven't really told you anything about me as a person. There's not much to me, nothing worth explaining. I really am just a typical person living a life that so many before me have lived. But at the same time, I have a perspective nobody else can see. I don't know what they see when they peer through their own eyes, but I know what I see. I see a lot of blank personalities, I see trust crumbling and I see jealousy thriving on peoples insecurities. I see lots of things. But I don't think it's what we see that we know.
Shyness can stop  you from doing all the things in life you'd like to.




So, now I've stopped being gay and philosophical, I shall update you. I have been (for the last few days, since Sunday really) chilling with some of the girls - Watts, Rach, Arrowsmifff and a few lads - Elliot and Toby. Which was noiceee as the weather has been lush, and I had Watts and Proudman over for a sleepover. We slept in a tent that Proud' and I successfully put up (I'm still proud of that) and we generally just had a laugh that day. Got some epic tanlines, the usual.
Then we chilled again but it wasn't as sunny and we were all tired so it was all a bit blegh and stuff. But yeah.
Good times.
Holiday soon.
sgjsdgjsdgjsdj YAY YAY YAY - I'm going to be working shit loads so I don't know why I'm excited.

I miss you. So much.
I wish you could understand that.

when after all this time that you still owe you're still a good for nothin' i don't know

Baby get out, while you can.
Right now, I'm sat in bed, thinking about nothing because I woke up about half an hour ago. In four minutes, I need to get ready for going to school -.- yay, because I have an exam. But hopefully I'll be free after that to chill with Rach and stuff, I need to do mega physics revision! Hahaha I've so failed my science GCSE. S'a fact.
These last few weeks have been HECTIC and I haven't properly updated you on all of the crazy goings on that have been...well, going on.

Weekend:
Last weekend the girls and I had an amazing party at my friend's house, Claudie. We had an immense time, drinking, dancing and laughing...and later on crying, then more dancing and laughing. The alcohol ran out to quickly it seems.
However we followed that up with some good old chat roulette and omegle, which was just hilarious and definitely made my life.

Since then:
Seriously not done much at all apart from that. Went shopping with Watts yesterday and I bought a skirt and top, which was exciting. SO many hot Bath boys!
One had a really cute little smiling staring competition with me, and when we walked past said "FITTY" and as derogatory  as that is, it made me very happy actually!
I could live in Bath due to all those boys.


gotta dash but may write another later <3

Made in Chelsea. And then bedtime.
Nomalom.

I H A T E Y O U

Ha okay I lied. I'm not over him. A glimpse of you online is all I needed to want to wretch with nervousness. But, I'm getting there. I think I hate you more than I like you, which by the way, is very true. ERGH. I hate you.

I love pretty lyrics.

"It's meant to be getting easier.
 My heart still stops every time I remember.
It's not getting easier,
it feels like the wounds are new everytime I think of you.
The blood gushes from the wound, you've hurt me can't you see?
and you won't fix these injuries,
is it because you can't see them?
they're not the kind you fix with painkillers baby
they're the kind you need love and affection for."