I miss you. So much.
I wish you could understand that.

when after all this time that you still owe you're still a good for nothin' i don't know

Baby get out, while you can.
Right now, I'm sat in bed, thinking about nothing because I woke up about half an hour ago. In four minutes, I need to get ready for going to school -.- yay, because I have an exam. But hopefully I'll be free after that to chill with Rach and stuff, I need to do mega physics revision! Hahaha I've so failed my science GCSE. S'a fact.
These last few weeks have been HECTIC and I haven't properly updated you on all of the crazy goings on that have been...well, going on.

Weekend:
Last weekend the girls and I had an amazing party at my friend's house, Claudie. We had an immense time, drinking, dancing and laughing...and later on crying, then more dancing and laughing. The alcohol ran out to quickly it seems.
However we followed that up with some good old chat roulette and omegle, which was just hilarious and definitely made my life.

Since then:
Seriously not done much at all apart from that. Went shopping with Watts yesterday and I bought a skirt and top, which was exciting. SO many hot Bath boys!
One had a really cute little smiling staring competition with me, and when we walked past said "FITTY" and as derogatory  as that is, it made me very happy actually!
I could live in Bath due to all those boys.


gotta dash but may write another later <3

Made in Chelsea. And then bedtime.
Nomalom.

I H A T E Y O U

Ha okay I lied. I'm not over him. A glimpse of you online is all I needed to want to wretch with nervousness. But, I'm getting there. I think I hate you more than I like you, which by the way, is very true. ERGH. I hate you.

I love pretty lyrics.

"It's meant to be getting easier.
 My heart still stops every time I remember.
It's not getting easier,
it feels like the wounds are new everytime I think of you.
The blood gushes from the wound, you've hurt me can't you see?
and you won't fix these injuries,
is it because you can't see them?
they're not the kind you fix with painkillers baby
they're the kind you need love and affection for."

you can pretend it's what you know, but I've known it the whole time.

Tally ho! I am currently in a state of mind which can only be described as bamboozled.

This is because:

• I am feeling much better.
• I have no idea why.
• I stupidly didn't Hula Hoop today and now I feel as though I've gained 3 stone.

So, within reason of course, I feel both successes and failures on behalf of the young fool that I claim to be. 

I am in no position to claim that things are going terribly, nor should I say I live the best life ever.

I don't. But one thing I shall say about my life, is that every day a new door seems to open and behind those doors are new chapters in my life, which need writing, not ripping up.

So, opportunities, I have decided, whenever they rise, I should steal and place somewhere in my head.

And possibly my heart. Crazy places, both of those.

Virtually every spare moment I've had the last couple of days I've been exercising. I should probably have revised in those instead but you know how things can be. I'm a bit of a tool like that sometimes.

ciao bella bloggers xx

I love them.

How cute are they?

N'awh, cuties. 

So, basically. It's 00.03. It's officially Thursday. I need to start going to bed on time.

I have the dentist today, gross. I hate the dentist. 

jag vågar inte.

So, as of yesterday I randomly just decided something. No boys and a better lifestyle. That's what I'm going to try and achieve. Instead of waiting around breaking my heart, I'm going to be out making myself a better person. I think that seems like a wise thing to do, considering the last three days I've been in my room with candles crying like an insane person. Improving myself will give me a different viewpoint and a better perspective of myself. And hopefully, after this, I may finally feel good enough. Thinner, brighter, better. That's what I'm aiming for. Hearts aching don't do anything for ones diet. I just want to feel proud of who I am. And I'm not. I hate the person I currently am. I'm so full of dissapointment and people in my life who needn't be there, and they shadow those who make every day better. I'll let you know how much I like this later. <3

For anybody who wants to understand me,

listen to Taylor Swift songs.

Erik Hassle – Amelia

"Tell them how sorry I am,

This wasn't part of the plan,

this is the part that nobody mentions

I hope that you know

All my intentions were true

All that I wanted was you.

Go on, 

I will be fine,

Go on,

Take all the time you need,

This ain't your fault

Why don't you listen we're different that's all

There's only so much I can do

All that I wanted was you.

Won't you remember the good,

We gave it all that we could,

This is the part that nobody mentions

I hope that you know

All my intentions were true,

All that I wanted was you."

I don't mean to ruin things.

I just do.

:(

So many questions but no answers.

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