jag vågar inte.

So, as of yesterday I randomly just decided something. No boys and a better lifestyle. That's what I'm going to try and achieve. Instead of waiting around breaking my heart, I'm going to be out making myself a better person. I think that seems like a wise thing to do, considering the last three days I've been in my room with candles crying like an insane person. Improving myself will give me a different viewpoint and a better perspective of myself. And hopefully, after this, I may finally feel good enough. Thinner, brighter, better. That's what I'm aiming for. Hearts aching don't do anything for ones diet. I just want to feel proud of who I am. And I'm not. I hate the person I currently am. I'm so full of dissapointment and people in my life who needn't be there, and they shadow those who make every day better. I'll let you know how much I like this later. <3