why don't you be the writer and decide the words I say

Okay, so I'm blogging twice in one day. Normal. However, I feel like I have so much to say and just to get out there because if I don't I'm just going to drown in my sad excuse for a brain.
I'll begin with what I've done this evening, which is, revise, chat and watch a Cinderella Story. Which, stupid as it sounds I think did me loads of good. If you've seen it, you'll know that Sam has her epiphany, she says something that I think sums up my life very well right now.
"Even though I have no friends, no family and no money for college, it's you that I feel sorry for." Although of course I don't find myself in the same situation as her, I think it fits. 
I feel sorry for those who feel like they need to lie to fit in, which is what so many people do.
I'm glad everybody is angry at me for being honest, because at least I'm not living a lie like so many others do. I don't care about so many people right now, because I just don't have the time to pick up all the pieces from relationships which I didn't even break.
Because, I know who won't be there for them when they need me, which, I guarantee they will because that's all people ever do. It's really stupid because, to be really honest with you, most girls I know are living a complete lie as to who they are friends with anyway. I've heard them all bullshit about each other all the time, and in a tiny reckless moment I could accidentally spill/forward a message with the content of their real opinions, but what kind of person would that make me? I'm happy to go along with their play acting, as long as I'm not a part of it.
Also, the fact I get to go homeland for a little while is making me bubble inside with excitement. Litterally, I feel like I lose half my mass when I think about it :)